I've been looking around for a while, at things, at people, observing them in whatever little ways my faculties allow me to. And there seems to be repetitive pattern if you may. Our troubles, as though collective are largely the same. Most want to climb ladders, and somehow, they lament at their inability to do so. Ladders of all kinds, corporate, monetary, physical, mental, social, romantic, technological, familial, yada yada yada,
In most cases, that's the situation of you, the reader, as is mine.
Mom says ask the boss for for a promotion, dad talks about a pay-hike, investing, the wife wants to go to Hawaii, or some islands with blue waters and open skies, and not to forget, that new flat that she thinks you should buy. The kids want new clothes, an iPad each, more allowance, and a bunch of more gimmicks. You want the ultra-cute girl to like you back, the rest of the world to shout a little less, rev the motor all the way to the 7000rpm redline, and maybe, just maybe, keep those raging hormones a bit more on the leash. And each one of that, irrespective of who you are, what you do, rather what you don't, seems to be too much to ask. It's more troubling when you see someone who comes along, points a finger at something, takes what he/she wants, and walks away with a jump in their stride. At that time, you wonder, "How the fuck do you do that? I gotta learn that shit!". Strangely, many a times, all you need to do is walk up to whatever you want, take it and walk away with it. Or is it all the time?
There seems to be something elusive about how things work. Yes, true that most of what you do, may not work, no matter how many times you read Rhonda Byrne's "The Secret". I tried reading it myself, hoping that I'll be a changed man by the time I'm through with the book. I fell asleep on the third page. So that didn't work as planned. But like many of us, I find myself asking the question - How badly should you want something, to get it? Stupid question, I know. Most people will respond by throwing a brick at my head, saying "You don't wish for something, you idiot! You fucking work for it! Stop being a faggot and suck that dick!"
Then you see these blokes who endlessly give you advice on stuff.... "top 5 tricks to success", "top 365798 tips to achieve your goals", "best tips on living a happy life" and bollocks of that kind. Mind you, some of them make millions selling their horseshit to desperate people. From personal experience, the only thing that's remotely close to getting you what you want is just one word. It's called "Doggedness". Persevere till the time even life thinks "Damn, this fellow's serious. Let min through." or something. Yeah, just a warning, I don't think that formula works in romantic pursuits. I've heard it works there too, but perhaps, for the times I've tried, I've let up on the gas a little too soon.
That brings me to another question. When do you stop trying? Rather, when should you stop trying? Should you ever? Many tell that if you don't get a favorable response, chuck the person/thing and move on, as it's probably not be meant to be. But how do you know what's meant to be or not to be? Rejection, how many times before you thrown in the towel? 1? 2? 5? 7? 23? Yes, somewhere in my head, a voice says "Never". I honestly want to hear it and agree, but that will prompt me to make a few phone-calls that I know, won't help my situation one bit.
But, but, but, but and a big, sexy butt, in the midst of this anxiety-riddled existence, I've come to realize something precious. It's that no matter how hard you get battered, irrespective of whatever you're denied, if there's a voice in your head, that inner conscious, that says "Don't worry, just soldier on", there isn't a thing in the world that can keep you down for long. You may not have the code, or password to the secret gate that keeps you from the land of dreams, but nothing's stopping you from changing your world into your dreamland. Yup, that's some inner voice.
