Conversations

Universal conspiracy, destiny, and all the nonsense terminologies... All tools we use to rationalise what happens around us, to dress the happenings of our lives to create the most beautiful collage possible out of the scraps that we end up holding so close to ourselves.. The beauty of the collage is subject to variations, mostly variations in ones ability to imagine, and ones creativity. Some collages out there simply suck. Just saying...

Sometimes, conversations with friends become so trippy, if you may, their revelatory nature just leaves you dumbfounded. You come across some new paradigm, and all you say to yourself is something like... 

"Okay, what just happened?" 

To the point that you begin to imagine 

"Damn! It's like no one knew this shit existed!"

This is when you still don't have a clue of what it is that you so amazingly discovered.
A friend of mine said something on these lines.. And I quote....(Well, almost)

"Dude, you get told that if you want something, if you really, REALLY want something, the universe grants you your wish. But then here's the deal. You are a part of the universe. And the universe wants you to remain a part of it. So if you think of it, if the universe actually conspires to get you what you so truly, TRULY want, it is doing so to keep you from escaping the universe's grasp. You see the beauty of it? It is a trap. But it is so beautifully deceptive at that!"

After hearing my friend, I felt shaky. Or that's the shortest way I can describe how I felt. That's because each time someone has asked me what it is that I want the most, only one thought has come to mind consistently for about a year. I obviously cannot reveal this thought, for if I tell you, I'll have to kill you. Who ever the "you" is here. I'll leave it at the previous line being a general statement. Now, I suddenly have no clue of what I was saying. 

Friends.. Weird creatures. You make many throughout life. But the word "friend" is a tad bit overused. To be honest, there are acquaintances, in absolute abundance! And then there are these folks who emit the same wavelengths as you do, or somewhere close by. And then, you latch on!

I recently discovered anther category of people. These ones emit wavelengths that have a phase difference of 180 degrees with yours.  Basically, you aren't supposed to go anywhere close to these people. They are bio-hazards! But point being that you are inevitably attracted to this kind, despite the knowledge of your imminent destruction. And quite frankly, you don't have any plans to keep yourself from them, no matter how badly it is that you want to. 

Coming back to conversations of the third kind, whatever that means, one thing is for sure. They're fun. This is even in case you aren't the most talkative of people. 

Yesterday afternoon was a dull , lifeless time to be anywhere indoors. Specially so if the chemical balance in your head wasn't right. But strangely, I had company to share the miserable weather with. And that's a thing about company. If it is the right kind, there's nothing in the world that can keep you from having a good time. The high you get from conversations on such occasions is of a different kind altogether.

To say the least, all the moments until yesterday afternoon, all of them put together and kept aside, and the moments of yesterday afternoon taken together alone, the two time spans compared, yesterday holds a unique place of its own. 

It was a typical guys-conversation. Random strumming on the guitar, moments passing away in dazed confusions, the music from the movie "Inception" passing off as music from the movie "Interstellar", uninhibited bitching, goodness! I never knew that guys bitched so much till I engaged myself in a little bit of bitching myself. That's the deal when you have someone who you so blindly trust. And it is rare to find people you can trust so blindly. 

A: "Dude, you're so getting layed within the first year of getting employed. I can't say that about "D" though..."

*B cracks up in laughter...*

B: "But man, C is so cool! He's well built, he looks good. Damn! If I were a girl, I'd chose C over myself any day."

A: "Dude, keep your fantasies of C to yourself. You're a guy, and your choices suck already. Now don't make me imagine the quality of your choices if you were to suddenly turn into a girl."

*B cracks up in laughter.... again...*

For some reason, I cannot describe how epic the next line is. For that, you need to know your A, B, C, Ds'. 

B: "Imagine staying married to D. Goodness!" 

(Now imagine that previous line, specially the word "Imagine" being said in a highly stressed, very slow paced, and very high pitched voice.)

Sadly, the experience of yesterday afternoon was to be experienced by two people. And how I wish I could take that memory of mine and drop it into a pensive, like the one at Hogwarts, and broadcast my thoughts for the world to enjoy. But would the world get what happened yesterday? This is all the more a question that stays in mind, given that I kept saying to myself that "This is actually happening" throughout the afternoon, given the thoughts that kept coming into my mind. 

Bekal fort. I want to go to Bekal fort. Specially with the cloudy weather that there is nowadays. This particular song, "Tu hi re" lingers in mind for some reason. Probably because it was shot at Bekal fort. And Why is Kavita Krishnamurthy so screechy in the song?