Yesterday

If there was one day in my life where I learned the most, it was the day before today. There ain't no lofty philosophy behind the first sentence of this post. Today is the 21st of February. Yesterday was the 20th. A day that had nothing profound about it, and yet feels important for reasons that shall find their mention below.

Nothing great about the morning. Usual class, same benches, same tantalizing smells, random jokes, and the class got over. But life exists outside class. A huge chunk of it! Time for Shorty's day out! Wow! I just now realized how big the world is. How unfathomably it extends in every direction. So out I stepped, ran a few errands, and magically landed in front of the college library.

She stood right in front. My little doll. She turned around, smiled naughtily. Random incomprehensible words, a small flutter of heartbeats, more incomprehensible conversation to kill the anxiety, a cup of coffee(bad idea), the worst handshake of my life and a "Leave her alone, man!". And I was out! And a big part of the remaining day stared me right in the face. 

Sometimes it is hard to gauge one's own ferocity. It is only when another fellow comes and tells you to just pinch a little less hard the next time, that you realize that maybe, just maybe, you could have held back a little. But then going all out is any day better than losing out because you held back that tad bit too much. Make way please!

Persuasion is a bitch! It is also an art. But it still is a bitch! Specially when you need to convince someone to give you money, or to go out on a date with you, or to convince yourself that it will all be fine, or even to convince yourself that something must be done as things are not alright.

Actually, it is a lot about understanding people. And also, frankly more so about trying till your legs hurt. You sleep well at night. Oh yes! It is also about doggedness and shamelessness. One can never persuade if afraid of saying what he/she really wants to day.

Here's where the lesson for the day started. 

This simultaneously overconfident, self doubting, uncertain, stupid, genius, obsessive, fickle mind was, remains and shall for ever remain a gift and curse. Talk about multitasking. You feel like god for a second, and the next moment, you feel like the scum floating on a pond. Thumbs up to that. And strangely enough, this केमिकल लोचा (Chemical imbalance) is what makes the whole ride fun!

When the endorphin graph is plummeting, a companion with a lifted spirit is a blessing. And yesterday, I was blessed with two. And we hit the road, almost convinced that nothing could stop us. Maybe I was the only one hallucinating. Either way, nothing topped us. So no difference if one was hallucinating, or all were. 

A few of my beliefs got more reinforced. 

You don't need someone with a lot more experience than you have to learn from them. For all you know, someone younger than you could leave you profoundly
inspired. 

Bluntness is the way to go. With nothing to hide. No mollycoddled words, nothing written in fine print (***Conditions apply). I don't know what to do if the lady is a bit taken aback by your frank stand, but maybe she'll at least know and even appreciate your honesty, if she happens to be lucky.

Quirks of life are there for a reason. To make life quirky. That was a no brainer, I suppose. 

Time for another epiphany! The greatest of leaders must have had their moments of uncertainty, which, very few people, if at all any, must have known about. But at the final moments, somehow, magically, things fell in place. They usually do. Either that, or my temporary serenity deludes me into thinking so. The ones who know about your dwindling state of mind moments before the final hour, who most certainly hate you for your indecision  till the final moment, are the only people you can truly trust. They'll never tell you what an arsehole you are. Because they know for the fact that it's not going to help the situation get any better. And so, they place that last ounce of their trust in you, with their fingers crossed behind their backs, hoping that you'll pull it off at the last moment. If you feel the smallest morsel of strength to stay at what you do, take a moment and thank your fortunes for giving you such folks who have your back.

PEACE!